Dear X-ATI Girl,
I have just given birth to our eleventh child, our seventh son Jedidiah. Since Jedidiah’s birth, I have had very little strength to do anything other than being able to spend time on my knees in prayer. I rise at 7:00am and immediately go to my prayer closet and spend three hours praying for the lives of my children, my husband’s business, and that I will be able to be a submissive wife with a gentle spirit. My prayer time grows with each day and I am prayerfully considering beginning the use of a headcoverings for my daughters and I so that we can publicly testify of our submission to my husband and their father.
My children arise at 5:30am to milk the goats before the girls prepare breakfast and feed their siblings. My dear daughters are preparing for being wives and mothers by caring for their siblings and truly find so much joy in taking on this responsibility. They diligently make all of our household clothes and linens. When my dear sons shear the sheep, the girls spin the wool to create beautiful blankets which are on every bed of our home. Because my dear husband and I believe that refined sugar is an addiction that Satan would wish to allow into our lives, my daughters also have the responsibility of grinding the wheat we get from a co-op each month, and making our bread daily.
My oldest daughter, Sara (28), is beginning the midwifery program offered by IBLP [Institute in Basic Life Principles], while she faithfully asks God to provide a fellow who would be her husband. My dear husband only allows our daughters to court and carefully discerns which men are sent from God and which would be a wolf in disguise to steal our daughters’ virtue. None of my dear daughters are currently courting gentlemen, and none of them ever have. I am blessed to have a daughter like Sara who understands her role in life as being a keeper at home.
In the past year, my children have developed a spirit of bitterness and rebellion. I do not understand how this can be the case. There is no rock music in our home. We do not have a television. They do occasionally listen to the radio, but only when it is closely supervised by either me or my husband. We have Character Link internet so I am able to view everything that my children see online. My dear husband and I diligently search their rooms to ensure that there are no evil influences that enter into our home. Even with all of this, my children are choosing anger, and the light in their once bright eyes has begun to dim.
Please, X-ATI Girl, help me. I am told that you have had experience in all of these areas and can give me advice on how to regain control of my home and my children’s spirits. Since Jedidiah has been born, I have required much more encouragement from other mothers and the teachings of the older women in our home church. Because of this, our long distance was at a rate which we could no longer afford and our phones have been cut off. Although we will be unable to speak to each other, I would ask that you write me a letter.
Many blessings to you,
Gentleness in Greenville